just me..

Who am I.. really? This is a question that has been rumbling around in my mind lately. It seems lately that I have been just going through the motions and the days keep on passing by. I asked myself the other day.. Is there something missing? Is there something else I am suppose to be doing? Of course my first "calling" if you will, is to be a wife and mother.. which I absolutely love and am very passionate about. I am overwhelmed that God has entrusted these precious lives to me, to take care of and love with everything in me. However, beyond that.. I feel something deep with in me that cries out.. more! More of what? I have to think that at the end of the day, when most people look at their very fulfilling lives, most of us wonder... is there really more? About a week ago, a friend of mine really challenged and encouraged me. I was reminded of some desires hidden in the depths of who I am.. some desires that have seemed to get covered up with all the dailyness and busyness of life. I really love to write. I love how it allows me to be open and vunerable, raw and real. I have never really felt that I am a great communicator but I can almost always express myself better if I write it out. But why is that? I think a lot of people want to be real and authentic but we let our insecurities get in the way. I know I do. So, starting today I am becoming the real me! I want people to really see me, see in my heart, know who I am and what I stand for. I want to encourage and help other people in this journey of life. I have learned that there is nothing more fulfilling than knowing God and being used by Him to impact other peoples lives. I do not want to just "go through the motions" .. that leaves you with emptiness. I want to get out of my own way and live my life on purpose!
Perhaps as I practice writing I will eventually be as bold in person as I can be when I write. I can't promise anything profound.. just my thoughts and of course a story or two about my precious babies. That is all for now..

"I cry out to God Most High, to God, who fulfills his purpose for me.."
Psalm 57:2